SHEESH. i forgot about this.
Im back. I know i havent been on her for a while, but shits been a little rough. Ive been trying to get over someone i was obviously never meant to get over.
I miss that feeling of security. I miss that feeling that hes always gunna be there, that im sure im the only one he cares about. I miss the feeling when someone else is mean or says somethin to me that hes always there. I miss that feeling of knowing im his, and every other guy knows it to. I miss that feeling of being safe.
I have lost my sanity, ill finally admit it.
I cant take this, i want this to be over, i havent aten, the only thing i ate was a cookie nd i threw it back up, the last thing i had was friendlys on sunday morning. My dad tried to take me to ruby tuesdays but i wouldnt leave my bed; i havent left my bed except when i had to go to school, and i havent stopped crying, except for a little in school. Im going to breakdown eventually; more than i am right now. Im lost, im confused. I feel unwanted and no purpose in life.
I sware im going crazy. Unfortunately, i know that eventually im going to wind up doing something stupid. I dont want to but its killing me. I feel like theres nothing left to live for. I opened my heart and gave him the key because i thought he would never leave me. I can litterally feel my heart breaking
Ive lost everything, goodbye.
I love him. Thats all i have to say right now.